this eating thing is getting worse and i thought id be able to control it,but i cant!!
the most depressing thing that had kept crying since last nigth is this.
i had a little bag in my room full of stuff i never wanted my parents to see,e.g pill packets,tissues soaked in blood etc.
so i thought id go for a walk and throw it away.
i fucking put my penknife and two sharpest razors in there for safe keeping...and i only realised that night id thrown in some random bin somewhere
im sorry if i sound pathetic but its made my heart sink and i know i hadnt used them but i need them as a kind on safety blanket...just to know they're there...i dont know what to do!!